Still Here, Still Breathing

Yes — I’m still breathing.

I finally managed to take some real time off and come home for the first time in… honestly, something like three years. Long enough that everything feels familiar and unfamiliar at the same time.

It’s been chaotic. Tiring. Loud in the way family homes tend to be. But there’s something strange about that kind of exhaustion — it’s different from work stress. Cleaner, somehow. The kind that settles into your bones instead of sitting on your chest.

I’m writing this while the house smells like my grandma’s cooking, a cigarette burning nearby, the living room arranged almost the same… but not quite. The furniture feels like it shifted without asking me. Time did its thing while I was gone.

It’s nostalgic in a way that tugs harder than I expected. Not sad — just heavy with memory. The good kind. The kind you sit with.

A Small Experiment I’ve Been Quietly Thinking About

Part of why I’ve been a little quiet lately is that I’ve been circling a new idea.

For as long as I can remember, I’ve loved manga and novels — and just as consistently, I’ve watched the good ones disappear. Scanlations dropped. Stories abandoned. Meanwhile, the most aggressively average stuff somehow runs forever.

At some point, impatience turned into curiosity.

What if I tried making something instead?

Not because I think I have something profound to say — but because I want to experience a world from the inside out. To discover it by building it, the way reading once felt before it became a hunt for updates.

I don’t know yet how I’ll share it. Chapter by chapter, small batches, or just whenever it feels right. I’ll figure that out as I go. Or I won’t. Either way feels fine.

When Games Start Feeling… Quiet

Lately, games have been feeling a little muted.

Not bad — just harder to keep up with. The ones I want to love ask for more time than I can give, and the rest blur together. So I’ll keep playing what I can, when I can… and write when I need something different.

Writing scratches a different itch.

Pillow Thoughts has always been a place to reflect — and I love it for that. I don’t plan on stopping. But I’ve also wanted a creative outlet that stretches further than reflection alone. Something messier. More exploratory.

This little story experiment is one attempt at that.

A Few Loose Ends (As Always)

Also — completely unrelated — I finally got my leverless set up. I might try some Tekken or Street Fighter.

If I get absolutely destroyed, no you didn’t hear that from me.
And if no one asks, that’s probably for the best.

That’s the plan, more or less.

No grand roadmap. No promises. Just trying things, writing things, and seeing what sticks.

So… buckle up.
Or don’t.
Either way, let’s go 🌙